Today is New Years Eve and the final day of 2024. Finally we come to a close. This was one of the hardest years I ever faced in my entire life but it was also the best for what I have experienced mostly on social media etc. I mean I had Letterboxd and this blog so what's not to love. This year I faced throughout what adult life would be and man I wasn't ready for it. I had an internship which was alright. Definitely really chill for the most part, and I did face against having an interview with some adults at my high school. That was nothing special mostly because it went out of nowhere. And I have to say it was definitely quick. Didn't felt like it dragged on.
OK. Let me talk about the beginning of what 2024 was like for me. It started off normal as always, still finishing off 10th grade in internal rage. But not only was it bad to finish but I did reshapen my personality and tastes a little more. I really did not have any interest in liking Tom and Jerry and Disney shorts back then but when I discovered Preston Blair and watching the actual shorts, I started to love them, I was inspired more by classic animation and I became more of an old soul. I started experiencing more of the classics, Three Stooges, Gene Kelly, Cab Calloway, Laurel And Hardy and many more. I definitely had the best summer vacation in a long time, I became less secretive about my stuff and became more open with my tastes with people.
But when 12th grade came around, things would make a big impact on me, I was taken part on making virtue drawings every month, and I absolutely hated how school is nowadays. I used to think school was kinda fun but nowadays feels like a torture room. I have autism and ADHD and to me the subjects feel completely broken and dispirited. It's certainly no hope that I have to pass every quarter which is just exhausting. Teachers and the entire staff of the school nowadays only care about grades and while it's not necessarily bad to care for stuff like that, only caring about it is a travesty since besides school, work and film studios nowadays only care about money and not enough care about talent and heart. I do have to say that money is important but society literally takes it to a million. It's being way too sensitive and serious nowadays that people need to actually calm down. It's legitimately not the end of the world and for me I have experienced of what the past was and tell me I wished it was still like it.
December hit rock bottom. I was not in my best mood at the start of the month, in fact I was in immediate stress and anger, it's probably because of the cold season getting in. Also speaking of stress and anger, one day I was so pissed off of my algebra work and how painful it was that I literally put a calculator in the trash, a few days later a message was brought up on the calculator thing and I knew it was my fault. I felt really bad, I felt guilt and coldhearted inside, at least I didn't got suspended, not that I actually could've wished I did. By that time, I took my drawings at a different light and became more obsessed with doodling and not worrying about the world around me. It was at winter break, I could finally rest. I didn't have the best Christmas ever but it was definitely something.
2024 would've been the absolute worst year but with my blog, and me being more down to earth than usual, I could say this year was kind of a mixed bag. Has alot of good but also ALOT of bad too.
Hopefully 2025 will be slightly better, but just only slightly, I will never know what will be thrown at my face.
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