A few months ago, I graduated high school, it was the best experience I had in my life. It was a struggle but it made me stronger and more efficient. Let's head back just 4 months later, I made an announcement that I didn't felt like watching cartoons anymore, I led to no inspiration and I felt good with what I watched in terms of the animation medium. And just about a month ago from today I realized that animation wasn't enough, I was keen on experiencing other things. But nothing and I mean absolutely nothing comes close to what changed my life just a few days ago.
I'm not entirely religious yet, but I am finding a path to knowing more about life and how it's becoming more strange and robotic. Things just aren't the same anymore. It feels more unhealthy and unnecessary. I just realized that social media is only a warranty for greed and popularity, and that just makes me upset not that I get ticked into news or politics. I never have, but I mean it, social media and content just keeps on getting worse and my opinion, it's worthless altogether. I don't think I should even be able to gain knowledge into YouTube anyways. I only do it for the old stuff, commentary videos on those weird topics and of course music.
No, you know what has immediately impacted me more than anything else? My experience with spiritualism like the Seven Deadly Sins and The Ten Commandments. I feel like I truly am missing out on the truth nowadays. Not everything but just a little tint. The Bible is one of my favorite books for a reason, in fact, it isn't just a book, it's the book of "life". There is alot of pages of different people who have talked and seeked to the lord, and to me, I feel like that part of me has truly been taken.
I definitely know that my life is not perfect, but it shouldn't be, like at all. I don't want to be famous, I don't care about money as much as other people do, trends are very unfortunate. But what came into me was Commandment 2 whereas it talks about worshipping idols or other things. Probably the easiest rule to break ever.
I honestly think that what I'm doing is probably a sin. My phone, drawing, inspiration, toys around my room, heck even food. And to me those are important on a basis. I do clearly know that the lord is the top priority. I've known that ever since I knew about it, but now that I'm looking more into it, it's deeper than you think.
This is probably why I have taken breaks from time to time now on my blog and really looking into more natural wisdom. It's kinda disappointing but not wretched because we didn't have all of this fun stuff for over thousands of years. It's just a trick. Now I do still believe that I can still give myself experience from other people and films and still continue my artistic ability, but it'll never progress than being in touch with spirituality. I'll be taking a few day hiatus on this blog. Until then, I guess I'll say farewell.